Where It All Started
Monday 9th December, 2019. I had planned to go to the market and hubby decided to follow me since he was off work. The night before, we had talked about how we wanted to switch to morning workouts because, the night routine is a struggle. So we planned to start the next day, which is a Monday and we're both off work.
We woke up late and ended up not going to the gym. Actually, hubs woke up but I refused to wake up (according to him.. lol) We let that slide and said we'll go in the evening so we go early to the market in order to get good stuffs. Time for the market, and one of my jeans didn't fit. That was my first eye opener. I had been seeing signs already when my ring gets too difficult to wear or take off but I didn't think much to it, or rather I was afraid to actually admit the obvious... I was gaining weight.
Change of cloth, fast forward to the house, after the market runs. I was sitting on hubby's lap and after a while, his legs started shaking, and I jokingly asked why. Turned out that I was too heavy and blood flow to his leg was cutting off. L O L... jokes on me
He tried to be romantic afterwards, and kasala burst. I was too heavy to lift. OMG! Like this man carried me comfortably 3 months ago, on our wedding day.
Then it all clicked. My life flashed right before my eyes and I reflected on my lifestyle. I knew these things already but I was in denial. This time, I had come to acceptance and the reality hit me. My insecurities, my fear, everything came out in full glare. I was so sober but determined at the same time. I'm willing to take charge of my health. I don't want to be that lady struggling with heart conditions or self image few years down the line.
Hubs also talked about his struggles, and we both held hands and prayed because we knew we couldn't do it together without God.
This is how it all started! I don't know the culprits yet. All I know is that fear of the unknown, insecurities, stress, and binge eating are the culprit and I've got to make them all go, and come to live a quality life.
Welcome to my blog. I'm Gbemi and I'm thankful you dropped by. Feel free to read my profile and I hope this blog speaks to you too.
If you have any struggles, please feel free to rant here or send me an email at fitnaijafoodie@gmail.com if you need advice from a struggling me. Let's help each other!
Mistake no 1.. we slept late
Change of cloth, fast forward to the house, after the market runs. I was sitting on hubby's lap and after a while, his legs started shaking, and I jokingly asked why. Turned out that I was too heavy and blood flow to his leg was cutting off. L O L... jokes on me
He tried to be romantic afterwards, and kasala burst. I was too heavy to lift. OMG! Like this man carried me comfortably 3 months ago, on our wedding day.
Then it all clicked. My life flashed right before my eyes and I reflected on my lifestyle. I knew these things already but I was in denial. This time, I had come to acceptance and the reality hit me. My insecurities, my fear, everything came out in full glare. I was so sober but determined at the same time. I'm willing to take charge of my health. I don't want to be that lady struggling with heart conditions or self image few years down the line.
Hubs also talked about his struggles, and we both held hands and prayed because we knew we couldn't do it together without God.
This is how it all started! I don't know the culprits yet. All I know is that fear of the unknown, insecurities, stress, and binge eating are the culprit and I've got to make them all go, and come to live a quality life.
Welcome to my blog. I'm Gbemi and I'm thankful you dropped by. Feel free to read my profile and I hope this blog speaks to you too.
If you have any struggles, please feel free to rant here or send me an email at fitnaijafoodie@gmail.com if you need advice from a struggling me. Let's help each other!
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